Icing On Top (or not)
- gwenchin
- Dec 31, 2016
- 3 min read
Here we go, it's that time of the year. Where everyone (okay, maybe not everyone...) decides to make a New Year's Resolution, and not follow through. (lmao what's new?)
To be quite honest, 2016 was shit. Real shit. It's like having lady cramps and watching everything you love burn to the ground. Yes, it was that shit. Well, at least it was to me. (Don't lie, 2016 burned a scar on everyone. Be it good or bad.)
On this last day of this (crap) year, it only seems fitting to reflect on this stink-bomb of a mess it was. All in my perspective.
2016 kicked off on a good high. Coming off of a job I loved every second of and preparing for a new chapter in my life that is university (or college, for Americans), everything seemed to have fallen into place nicely. I got to meet new people and form friendships with many that I would not be friends with if I had stayed in my little fishbowl. I didn't think that the year would be able to throw any sort of unexpected curveball at me.
Hot damn was I wrong. The year just got progressively crap as it went on. (I'll spare the details, not worth going into all...) I was constantly not in very good places and closed myself off to people around me. I started getting quiet, reserving my comments, and kept my opinions to myself because I felt that they weren't being valued anyway, so why bother? I just kept hitting the same wall again and again, and I couldn't see what was going wrong.
Approaching the last quarter of the year, things just hit rock bottom. There were so many things going wrong in my life, I don't even know where to begin digging in that cesspool of a mess. Ever felt like a stranger in a place you thought you felt comfortable in? That was exactly how it was. I was filled with fear, worry, confusion, and always in a state of anxiety. Wondering if my next move would cause an avalanche of trouble. (it's like playing Jenga, but every time you go to remove a block, the entire tower just falls)
They say it isn't about the bad situations, but the way you bounce back from them. But hell, sometimes, it is really hard to stand back up again. Not to be negative, but it is the most difficult to do when you have to be careful of your every move just to avoid criticism. Furthermore, you are surrounded by people who are ready to unleash their wrath on you. It's really hard to walk though it all without a scar on you
(Aight, enough of the negativity) Regardless of the mess 2016 has been, it's somewhat comforting to acknowledge the good things that have happened this year. There were moments that I wished I could have stayed in longer, moments which I wished I could capture in a jar and keep them safely on a shelf. If there is something I'm taking out of this, it's "Don't cry because it turned out badly, smile because it happened in the first place". (disclaimer: sometimes you don't smile because something happened. you have every right to throw a fit. you do you)
The strongest people have had A LOT of crap they have to deal with. They are strong because they've developed the thickest of skins from all the scars they are forced to carry around with them. If they know they would have to sever relationships or friendships in order to keep moving, they would do so even though it hurts them to. These people have many layers and dimensions to them, and they make for the best storytellers.
As the year draws to a close, let's toast to all the great things that have happened (and try to forget the bad things, because hey, our brain has only that much space).
Most standout moment of 2016? Hiddleswift. The internet went batshit crazy. Hilarious.
2017, you better not throw any more curveballs like your friend 2016 has.
Image credit: Jeels (the shirt says it all, doesn't it)
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