At Your Expense
- gwenchin
- Jan 12, 2017
- 2 min read
If someone says they don't feel happy seeing you unhappy, but are doing nothing about it, they don't really care for your wellbeing at all.
To them, your happiness is not important. What's important is that you crack open wide enough for them to take what they need out of you. What's left of you does not concern them anymore - you were bred for slaughter and things are as simple as that. You are to clean up the aftermath.
They make it so that you have no way of winning, no matter how much you try to protest, argue, or reason. They make it so that everything is at the expense of your happiness. Your happiness is like taxes - you're required to pay, but you don't exactly know where it's being used.
Hence I've learned - I do not let others use my happiness against me. It's mine. I get to say and do what makes me happy. If I know I'm not going to be happy doing it, I'm NOT doing it. Why do I have to sacrifice my personal opinions and mental health for the pleasure of someone else, when all they want is what they're only out to get?
Some people just find joy in watching the world burn - but it isn't their world that is burning, it's their victims' world. They pick on you just because they can; and they find joy in doing so (even though they say they don't).
Similarly, there are people out there who find joy in manipulating your feelings (even if they say they aren't manipulating you). An analogy to make things easier: they've got the cold, and you are the last piece of tissue they have in the box. Knowing they can always purchase more tissue, they will not hesitate to use that last piece without second thought.
You will be used, manipulated, then discarded without another thought. To them, you are not as important and or precious to them as compared to before. They promised to be there no matter what happened, but just like the Black Hole, their promises are as empty as they are. Moreover, they transform into a whole different person right in front of your eyes - the person you used to trust with your life has now become a stranger. They are no longer the familiar face or voice you look forward to seeing or hearing everyday - because you now don't even fall into their list of important things anymore.
"Some they lie. They don't come back" - Narelle Kheng
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